Tuesday, February 24, 2015


Pictures taken last summer at my grandparents' cottage

Oh Hi!

It seems that everywhere in the world it's now going into spring and the sun is shining and it's warm. And then you step outside in Finland and we currently have half a meter of snow and the roads are slippery as hell.

We're now in that stage here in my town when it's always about 2°C and the roads are super slippery so you have to walk in that awkward way pushing your feet into the ground praying to God you won't slip and end up in the hospital. Needless to say, it's not spring here.

It's also been super windy recently. You check the tempeture and it says 2,5°C so you think "Ah it's warmer outside" and then you have to stand waiting for your parents to pick you up and you realize that it's actually freezing (also you're afraid you'll be swept of your feet and blown into the sky).

I guess what I'm trying to say is that I just want it to be summer already. I mean spring is my least favorite season because it's just rainy and dirty everywhere when the snow is melting but we need spring for it to become summer. So please God, give us spring. I am tired of this snowy windy coldness.

I also want to apologize for not posting anything for like 2 weeks. I just got an extreme blogging crisis and I wasn't sure what to write about and what I want to write about so I didn't post anything. The writer's block might come back but I'm trying my absolute best to think of things to write about. I'm just not quite sure what I want to have on this blog. I'll figure it out (I hope). Until then, please be patient with me and my random posting days!

Wednesday, February 11, 2015

Foundation Problems | Beauty Wednesday

Oh Hi!

So recently I've really been looking for a foundation. My MaxFactor Face Finity foundation is too dark (of course) and my Maybelline Super Stay foundation is too dark and breaks me out. So I went to Emotion, the only makeup store we have in my town, hoping to find a good foundation to try. I was willing to spend 40€ as well.

I was thinking about trying the Clarins Ever Matte foundation so I went to the Clarins counter and picked up the lightest shade and tried it on my jawline. Nope. Too orange and dark. Then my friend said hello to one of the girls at the store. Turns out she knew her so then she kindly helped me look for a foundation in my shade.

We spent half an hour trying to find a foundation with a pale shade that wasn't orange. Literally no luck. We then, in a desperate "I JUST WANT A GOOD FOUNDATION" tried the L'Oréal True Match foundation in Rosy Ivory C1. It was closer to my shade but not perfect. But the closest we found. So we applied it all over my face and I said I wanted to see if it stays on. Then I got some of the foundation in a little tube to try at home.

Four hours later when I took of the foundation it had gone about 2-3 shades darker. Oh okay? I know the reason a foundation does that is because of oxidation and you can prevent it but the foundation isn't really my shade from the start. (Conclusion: I will note buy that foundation.)

So why is it that we pale girls who don't ever get a tan have to run around trying to look for a foundation everywhere? Well, when makeup brands pick shades, they pick the shades they think are most popular. Sadly, they find that the really pale ones aren't popular. Or then they do make a kind of pale shade but make it way too orange. Need I tell you; Most pale girls have cool undertones, AKA the foundation should be more PINK than ORANGE. 

So, in my desperation to get a foundation in the right shade I'll probably be going 2 hours to another city to go to another makeupstore that sell more makeup.

Any pale girls reading my blog? If so, what foundation do you use and what skintype do you have? Give me all the recommendations because I'm DESPERATE.

Sunday, February 1, 2015

As A 16-Year-Old-Girl I Fear...

When I was younger I decided that as I grow older I want two children. A girl and a boy. As I then grew older I started to feel like it's maybe not such a great idea to bring children into this world.

I learnt about rape, inequality, racism, terrorism... etc. The list goes on. To a 16-soon-to-be-17-year-old-girl this world doesn't always look so bright. You think "oh but it won't happen here, it's far away from here" but then you hear about how a crazy man tries to bomb his ex-girlfriend 200 km from where you live. And it's suddenly real.

I recently read an article stating that most women are killed by a man they've had a close relationship with in Finland. That makes a 16-year-old-girl extremely worried because the fact that it's partly dangerous to be a woman in Finland, in FINLAND - that boring country where nothing happens, is strange. I could date a guy one day and be killed the next.

While our society is going forward, I feel like we're also going backwards. Because it is 2015 and a girl still have to pay more for a deodorant than a man has to pay. Because it is 2015 and some people still use "gay" as an insult. Because it is 2015 and you still can't love whoever. Because it is 2015 and people are still being killed for what they believe in. Because it is 2015 and you still can't be who you truly are. And because it is 2015 and people are still fighting to stay alive.

I've come to the point in my life when I don't want to bring a girl into this world, in fear that when she grows up she still doesn't earn as much as a man. In fear that she'll be scared for her life if she's out in the dark. And in fear that she'll one day come to me and tell me that a group of guys screamed harrassing things at her and she's now scared to go out, in case she'll see those guys again.

I've come to the point in my life when I don't want to bring a boy into this world, in fear I'll have to one day send him to war. In fear that he'll be told "oh man up" when he sheds a tear. In fear he'll see his best friend punch a girl. And in fear he'll come home one day and tell me that he was with his guy friends and they screamed harrassing things at a girl. And in fear, though it probably wouldn't happen, I'll have to send him to jail for rape. 

I also fear that my children would be sensitive, the way I am sensitive. I fear that they would grow to have depression and not tell me, in fear that I'll just say "oh, it'll just pass". I fear that they'll cry at 3am because of a test the next day and that they won't tell me about the panic attacks they've been having in fear that I'll just pass it off as "just some nervousness".

Most of all, I fear that they'll have to grow up in a society that kills people, rapes people, harrasses people, and gets away with it. I fear that they'll have to see on the news that two countries are fighting and that it might lead to another World War. I fear that they'll have to see this world fall apart, and then realize that they are the generation to build it up.

Because, as a 16-year-old-girl, seeing people kill and getting away with it, and seeing people raping and harrassing and still get away with it sucks. Because one day I could be raped, and my rapist would get away with it. And as a 16-year-old-girl, I watch my back when walking in the dark, in fear that a man would be following me. And I take a deep breath before passing a bigger crowd of guys, in fear that they'll scream harrassing things to me. And I see how my friends love someone and getting judged for it, because it's not IDEAL. And I see how a group of people stares at a black man in disgust, and I just want to punch the shit out of them. And I see how I have to pay more for a product than a man has to pay for a product that does the same thing. And as a 16-year-old-girl, it sucks.

*this was a different kind of blogpost but I had all these feelings inside of me that I had to get out and while I've nowhere near touched on all the things happening, I hope I can find someone who feels the same way as me*